Entropy

Oh no, we're not talking about Chemistry.

The concept of entropy has entered the domain of sociology, generally as a metaphor for chaos, disorder or dissipation of energy, rather than as a direct measure of thermodynamics.

A few months ago -- September, to be exact -- I entered a state of entropy... when I started questioning the decisions I did in the last year (or so). What I thought was a rock solid relationship was shook to the core, and it was never the same since then. I realized that that relationship was a lie. But I was in denial at first. Until someone disturbed my equilibrium.

"Kiss today goodbye... the sweetness and the sorrow..." was all I could utter as I walked under the starry night of Bonifacio High Street. "Wish me luck, the same to you..."

I was torn between giving up something I have been holding to, not out of love, but more of habit -- more of pride -- more of trying to fulfil a promise that was no longer valid. I promised that I will never leave, no matter what. But that night, I realized that circumstances are pushing me to break free of that promise. I decided to let the dust settle but took me all of four months before I finally did break free.

Now, I can feel the entropy again, quite unexpectedly. Am I ready for another shift in equilibrium?