Hop and Hop and Hop...

I have been postponing writing my new year blog for weeks already, and when the fireworks of the Chinese New Year started lighting up the polluted Manila skyline yesterday night, I knew that I had to write it sooner than later or the idea of writing it at all would be scrapped -- which does not really sit well with me because it sort of have been a tradition for several years now. And I really love holding on to tradition.

But somehow, inspiration did not kick in until now, if it has indeed kicked in. I can't find the right words to describe 2010 -- except for maybe "challenging". "Stagnation" could also be used. "Loss" will also pop up, for sure. I know they sound really negative words, but of course, "hope" and "faith" will follow. Yes, it was a hard year, from the moment it started, until the night I bade goodbye to it. I had a mixture of emotions and feelings that I shouldn't feel. I postponed making decisions which proved to be huge mistakes. I became passive-aggressive once again -- just like when I was in college. And in the last month that I have been thinking of what I will put in this blog, I knew that though I would still be writing this, it would be a lot different from what it usually contains.

There will be no mention of the people I was with or the things that transpired in the last year. No mention of the places I've been to or the things that I had. No mention of anything else but my gratitude for the blessings and good things that happened and regret for the things that I should have done.

And that's all there is to say.